I can remember the day when I looked up from my fish and realized I started to develop feelings for my friend. I was not sure what to do with them. I tried to rationalize them, then I thought can this even be possible? I waited a few weeks before I let him know. Then of all things I text him. Which makes me laugh. I should have probably told him face to face.
After our short text exchange we decided to go on a date to discuss this change of events. Moving from friendship to romantic definitely needed to be discussed. At this point I had no idea how he felt about me. I knew he was a supportive friend, but could or did his feeling change as mine did. That was the question I ran through my head over and over. Then I would analyze the times we hung out to see if he was giving me any sort of inclination that his feelings had.
By the time our date happened the pressure in my head was about to explode. Not to mention wondering what my children thought. I did not want to mention anything to them until the “adults” had their conversation.
I changed my clothes several times, probably putting too much thought into what I was going to wear. I walked out of my bedroom leaving my clothes strung all over the place and feeling very confident that I looked good.
I waited, peering out the window for his arrival. I wondered then how people would judge me, let alone judge him. This was a big deal to me. The first person I had feelings for after Mike…I never thought it would be possible.
As he pulled into my driveway, my fears changes to excitement. I thought tonight all of my questions will be answered. Some wishful thinking that all of the answers would come in one night…
Come back next week to find out what happened next…